If You Could Hear My Heart

Chapter 44: He Fears Losing Her

Translator: 549690339

Butler Ling was the first to discover Xu Chaomu crying incessantly, and she was terrified. In her eyes, how could Xu Chaomu ever cry!

Yet Xu Chaomu was indeed crying, and crying very sadly. Her shoulders were shaking non-stop, her sobbing deep with sorrow.

Butler Ling was at a loss; if Xu Chaomu had been yelling and screaming, it would have been easier to handle, yet there Xu Chaomu was, weeping.

She had been fine during dinner, so how did she end up crying like this after a trip to the kitchen?

She had no choice but to walk over and softly ask, “Miss Xu, what’s wrong?”

“Butler Ling, can you help me open the door, please?” Xu Chaomu lifted her head, clinging to Butler Ling’s arm.

When she looked up, her big eyes were teary and swollen from crying.

Butler Ling felt quite embarrassed, “Miss Xu, you know that none of us have the key to the Young Master’s room.”

“Does he only have one key to his room?” Xu Chaomu didn’t believe it.

“Yes, no one can enter the Young Master’s room, he always keeps his key with him,” Butler Ling explained patiently.

Xu Chaomu stopped making a fuss, realizing that if there was only one key, she wouldn’t be able to enter Shen Chi’s room.

She was still clutching the newspaper in her hand as she silently stood up.

Butler Ling took out a tissue and handed it to Xu Chaomu, “Miss Xu, what’s wrong? Please wipe your tears and tell me what happened.”

“It’s nothing!” Xu Chaomu refused to say more.

Butler Ling knew Xu Chaomu was stubborn; although she always appeared carefree, the stubbornness inside her bones could rival the Young Master’s!

If she refused to speak, then no words would be coaxed out of her.

The more rambunctious she seemed on the surface, the better, for her calmness indicated the eerie silence before a raging storm!

Xu Chaomu stopped crying and went into her own room with the newspaper.

Butler Ling grew more and more concerned; the Young Master had instructed her to call him if Xu Chaomu seemed off.

But the Young Master should be out socializing right now, or perhaps, keeping Miss Bai company. Should she make the call?

After hesitating for a while, she decided to go ahead and call.

Although Xu Chaomu didn’t hold as much weight in the Young Master’s heart as Miss Bai did, at the very least he would offer her some guidance.

Once she made the call, she indeed heard Miss Bail s silver bell-like laughter. Hesitating again, she still said, “Young Master, Miss Xu… is crying.”

Shen Chi’s brow furrowed, a dull pain emanating from his chest. Without asking for a reason, he stood up, “I’ll be right back!”

“What’s wrong?” Bai Man asked.

“I need to go back for a bit!” Shen Chi said in a steady voice, picking up the suit from the clothes rack and slipping it on before leaving.

“Hey, we finally got together for a drink. Stay and finish it with me!” Bai Man pleaded.

“The drink is on me.” Shen Chi, without looking back, headed directly to the parking lot.

Butler Ling held the phone for a long time, failing to snap back to reality. With a puzzled face, all she had said was one sentence, yet the Young Master said…

he was coming back right away?

She was somewhat puzzled; wasn’t the Young Master accompanying Miss Bai? By coming back now, wasn’t he leaving Miss Bai hanging?

Xu Chaomu opened the window to her own room, only a wall separated her room from Shen Chi’s.

She could climb over!

She just wanted to verify whether Bai Man had given him a tie as well!

She found it amusing, whether it was true or not, she was nothing more than a pet raised by Shen Chi.

Occasionally he treated her not so badly merely because she, his pet, was loyal, always standing by his side.

But, he would never give his emotions to a pet.

She began climbing out.

She moved a stool over; standing on it, she could just reach the edge of the window. Carefully holding onto the edge, she put one foot on it!

One foot steadied, she began lifting the other foot!

Looking down from her window to the lawn below, a five-meter drop, her legs began to tremble at the sight.

She started to crawl towards Shen Chi’s window ledge, inching along the edge of her own window little by little. She dared only take small steps, afraid that if she took a big step, she would fall down.

She didn’t want to die yet.

One hand clung to the window sill of her room while the other reached out towards Shen Chi’s balcony.

It was a bit far; she couldn’t reach it.

It was pitch-black outside, with only a few faint stars twinkling in the sky. There were lights on the lawn below, casting the green grass into eerie, spectral hues.

All around, it was quiet, so quiet that Xu Chaomu could even hear the sound of her own heartbeat!

Thud, thud, thud…

Since she couldn’t reach, she had to crawl along the wall. There was an old lamp on the wall that hadn’t been lit for a long time, but it was perfect for her to hook onto and use to aid her crawl!

Years later, when she looked back on this experience, all she could find it was ridiculous, just ridiculous.

One of her feet stepped onto the old lamp, uncertain if it could bear her weight.

At that time, she was just that determined.

When Shen Chi drove the car into the villa, the headlights shone right on Xu Chaomu, clinging to the balcony!

He didn’t even bother to park the car in the garage, hastily opening the door and sprinting over!

He rushed straight to the second floor, to Xu Chaomu’s room, and when he saw her foot dangling in the air, suspended by the old lamp, his heart suddenly skipped a beat!

She couldn’t have an accident; he wouldn’t let her have an accident!

“Chaomu!” he shouted in his heart and ran over with all his might. He stretched his hand out of the window and embraced her from behind!

Tightly, he held her in his arms!

“Ah!” Xu Chaomu, terrified out of her wits, was held in his embrace, looking straight into his face.

It was stern, gloomy, and rigid, and his body, exceptionally cold.

His hands firmly held her, almost as if his nails were digging into her flesh.

The next second, he completely lost it!

“Xu Chaomu, what the hell are you doing! If you want to die, don’t die at Shen Family’s place!”

His eyes were bloodshot, like a bloodthirsty lion ready to tear her apart!

In that second, he suddenly realized that he was afraid, afraid of losing her!

This feeling was incredibly strong.

His heart was also beating ferociously, spreading a desolate loneliness in his chest, bit by bit, like the bitter seeds of a lotus spreading out.

Xu Chaomu too was frightened by him, dumbstruck.

Shen Chi held her at the window, and in that moment, all was silent.

She didn’t remember when he threw her onto the bed, but she saw that his collar was tied with the same necktie she had bought for him.

Indeed, it looked handsome on him, paired with his white shirt and black suit. However, it made him look even more domineering.

And then, there was the smell of alcohol and perfume on him, not at all pleasant. Especially that perfume, that floral scent; she knew immediately who he had seen.

“I wanted to enter your room,” Xu Chaomu said fearlessly, looking up at him with her small face.

“What do you want in my room?” Shen Chi frowned.

Xu Chaomu unfolded the crumpled newspaper she had in her hand, flipped to the entertainment page, and threw it into his hands.

Shen Chi’s frown deepened. Who had shown her these newspapers?

As he opened it, indeed, it was a photo of him and Bai Man drinking in a bar, taken by someone in secret.

The angle was quite skilled; it looked like they were kissing. The corners of his lips slowly curved up into a smirk: “Just this?” Damn, just this? His tone was so casual! What else did he expect?

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